ast week was a wierd awaking.
Mainly it sucked lol. Shit all week and deppression hit hard.
I mean fell off my bike is one thing. Stupid girl, she saw me comming but no she just had to get in the way. And even after i fall and fuck up my knee and hand and arm she doesn't even say sorry just keeps walking like the bitch she is. I should of known then that bad times were getting worse. Then my luck ran out friday morning, when after dropping of my sis at work I was involved in a collision, no accident, collision would mean it was with someone else. Anway it was raining and I love driving in the rain, gives me a sense of accomplishment i guess cause im a good driver in the rain and can drive bettet than others in the rain. Well problem is you can't always win them all. I was turn and my back end just fliped around, smashed into the center divider and headed the other way, excpet i was turning as in cicles turning headed across all 3 lanes of traffic and hit the other barrier on the other side of the freeway, followed by more turns and finally fliping over. Once the rollercoaster was done i find myself on the passernger seat and my radio still on and the rain falling on my eyes. Qucikly i realize my car is on its side and open the driver side door to get out. I jump out and with traffic stopped some guys help me out and flipp my car over. i start her up and away i go. It wasn't till i got hom e to actually look at the damage that my heart trully broke. Gotta say she is the only one that will make me cry the way I did. It broke my heart that i hurt her that bad and love her so much cause she with stood the hits and flip amazingly well. No broken windows, frame intact, runs perfect. I mean had i been driving someting else i trully believe i would not be here tryping this out. Other cars would have torn apart, but my baby looked after me and made sure i was safe. I came out of it with nothing, no bruises, no scratches, physically fine as when i first got into her in the morning. nothing but the emotional pain of that she is hurt. Its a wierd feeling, some one else that was close to me had a similar accident, her car was totalled and she didn't really get hurt either but we had a conversation of weather she was paying attention to god.
ITs a wierd feeling, Last night i also remembered that I wasn't wearing a seat belt that day.
I dunno if it was a sign or some way of something telling me to wake up and do something. But i feel that better days are ahead because i will make them so. I know one thing for sure Im not ever gonna get rid of my Pearl. When im done with her she will be better than when we first met. I love my car and I love my life. On to better days..........