im moving on... thats right... i can't be that guy that just sits around and wonders and stares at everything goin on around him. Being nieve to the fact that life goes on and all my life can't just be based on one thing.. this case a girl. She knows how i feel and i know i have done my best and given my all and fought for us, but if she can't see that or appreciate me and what we have done togther and let doubts and outside voices hinder her love for me, then i will no longer stand for it and have no need to deal with it when i have enough shit going on in my life to worry about. She says she loves me and is just confused, i can see that and will give her space, but i do not know if when she returns i will be in the same place as she will want, especially knowing things that i know now. I love her I can't deny that and she knows it to, oh to well i hope. That, i know, will never change but i don't want to be in a one sided relationship anymore and give my all and not recieve the same in return. I just hope she keeps to her promises and realizes that no one else can or will love her the way i do, and when the time comes she will seek me out and make the effort needed to get me back, no matter how stubborn she is or how much she thinks im not there, it will always be better to find out then to wonder forever. It is a hard realization to come to and this will prove challenging, but i have been through it before and i think its time i start to have my fun again, worry about me, and take control of what i want.